'Loss' - October 2015

Sadly some friends have terribly disappointed me over the last 2 years, others have supported us so well I will never be able to thank them enough or repay them.

My sanity! Ha, well, what can I say! Do I still have it? Who knows!!! Some days I think it's still there and other days I feel like I'm going completely mad!!! Money, well I've had to take a career break to look after Cameron, it's a big decision to go without a salary for a year. But it's thanks to all of you, our community both here & abroad that we have been provided with the means to get Cameron better.

My family, couldn't do it without them, they are there at every turn to support me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart Raymond Lemon & Grace McParland & Kerrie Lemon & Campbell Lemon.

My darlin, Jonny Lindsay, I thought losing a baby would be one of the biggest tests our marriage would ever undergo, I was wrong ........we have been tested to the EXTREME these last 2 years, but do you know what, we are stronger than ever and I love him with all my heart.

I do think that I have lost myself slightly, I'm so swept up in this crusade, sometimes I'm not sure who I am any more. I'm certainly not the person I was before PANDAS . Maybe someday, when things calm down, and we are out the other end of this journey I'll get a chance to get to know myself again.....

However, when all is said & done, I'm still taken aback by the fierce determination that comes from within me, that drives me forward to keep fighting for my boy. 💙